Name: Arexcir (Air-ek-sear)
Other: Carrie
Title: The Inverse Star
Element: Life
Eyes: left blue, right white
Hair: brown (natural rust-colored highlights)


- History -

With a heart that could remain as a candle in the deepest black, most would think that Carrie was the safest in her world from the darkness. However, her greatest danger came from within, from the very light that kept at bay the darkness from without. The strength of her love for others, and hate for her own flaws that caused them pain, built up a shadow. Occasional bouts of self-loathing caused by small, insignificant incidents multiplied and fed the darkness in her heart. She wanted to live for others, but found herself constantly making mistakes and hurting others without thinking. She wanted to give everything she had for the friends she loved so much, but she constantly found herself battling a selfish human nature. A trivial occurrence brought about more memories of personal failures than Carrie could take. She fell to shadows in the forms of her friends, who trapped her sweetly and destroyed her softly. She was the first in her world to fall to the darkness. After that, the world was open to darkness, and started to fall apart person by person.

Though emotionally weak, Carrie’s will was strong. A fairly delicate person by nature, she’d learned to draw her strength from others. Her own philosophies on life drove her to protect the ones she loved most, her friends, through any means necessary. This built within her an adamantine will, which held her together and awoke a fully human-form nobody on the advent of her demise. Arexcir, the Inverse Star, found herself wandering purposeless without those people she needed. At some points, she actually began to fade. She tracked down and gathered her friends’ nobodies, and the group was quickly hunted down and investigated by the Organization.

While most of the Organization wouldn’t mind having her around, Xemnas drives Arexcir away with something almost like a passion. He disliked her instantly, and even more when she stated that she didn’t agree with his methods. He calls her a threat to his authority – due to her impudence towards him and refusal to fight for him – and is intent on destroying her. Thus, being anywhere near Castle Oblivion or the World That Never Was is very dangerous for her. Despite this, she considers Vexen her teacher, spending long hours in his lab studying alone when she can. She thinks of Zexion almost like a brother, though she’d never say it aloud, affectionately clinging to his arm on occasion.

She openly declares many of her friends her sisters, particularly Xannah, though her other had only one sibling and he was an older brother. Though she has no heart to drive her to it, Arexcir still tries to look out for other people, since it’s an integral part of her very nature, and still hopes she’d jump out in front of a moving train to save a stranger.


- Hobbies -

Listening to a staggeringly diverse collection of music, playing piano, writing poetry, drawing,  composing music (usually in minor keys, especially c and g minor), and sometimes cheerfully studying the periodic table of the elements.


- Forms -

Arexcir maintains her human appearance in most scenarios, only transforming when forced to. She has a very cat-like spirit, always has, and possesses some feline habits. There is also an avian side to her, as her spirit has always longed for freedom. These traits show in her three forms.
Her Adversary and Atrocity forms are very draining to take on. While transformed, she has quite a lot of power, but afterwards she ends up completely worthless. (The last time Atrocity form was taken, she was unconscious for nine days straight. Needless to say, this was not a good thing, and she was still weak for a few days after she woke up.) Certain conditions must be met for transformation into her stronger forms to be possible.

-- Kitten
When weakened, Arexcir transforms into a small, fluffy-furred, black and white kitten. There is a slight rusty tint to the tips of her ears and tail, and she retains her blue left eye and white right eye, though the pupils do become slits. In this form, she is extremely vulnerable, and cut off from all her powers.
(As a side note, this form also manifests when she is tickled too much. This is not nearly as severe as a transformation out of weakness, though, and she can usually turn human again quickly.)

-- Adversary
Adversary is about the size of a full-grown Bengal tiger, though more housecat-like in shape, with the pointed ears and thinner face. Her fur is all black, with rusty brown showing very faintly as highlights. Her eyes both become black. With large, steady paws and thick fur to protect her, she is ready and able to place herself between her friends and whatever endangers them. She turns herself into a living, slashing barrier, ramming into the enemy and beating them off with claws and fangs, thrashing wildly turning, quite literally, into a beast.
She still has control of her actions, despite being a tad feral. Adversary form is relatively safe. It is used when guarding helpless allies, ones who cannot defend themselves.
“If you’re looking for an opponent, leave them alone. They cannot fight, so I will be your adversary.”

-- Atrocity
Arexcir’s Atrocity form has only manifested itself a few times, and never without a great deal of pressure first. It is extremely rare for Arexcir to snap to the point that transformation is possible.
Atrocity is a feline creature of monstrous size, with wings that can create devastating gusts and claws that can rend a person in half. It has down feathers instead of fur, and a deafening roar. It is, quite literally, a monster. With blank white eyes – no pupils or irises – and dull red feathers, Atrocity is the stuff of legends… though Arexcir would seriously prefer that it not exist.
While in her Atrocity form, Arexcir has no thought, and no control over what she does. Atrocity begins to rise within her only when something twisted completely contravenes what she stands for. Though it usually accomplishes its task – destroying or seriously damaging whatever caused its rise – Atrocity form is volatile and unstable. It causes a great deal of unneeded damage, and leaves Arexcir useless for a long time after reverting to human form. It endangers any friends who might be around, so she avoids it. It is only due to sudden urge to kill that she lost her head and ended up transforming the few times that she did.
“How dare you show your face to me… to look at me… after doing something so… SO wrong… You have just violated… everything I stand for. And that… I will not stand for. Don’t speak to me. Don’t look at me! Just die!”


- Powers -

Though a nobody, and thus having to strive even to exist, Arexcir avoids conflict whenever possible. This is another link to her other, as Carrie was always trying to be everyone’s mediator and resolve all conflicts. She strives for peace and doesn’t want to fight, but knows that it is necessary at some points.
During most battles, she stands at the sidelines and heals those who fight offensively, occasionally getting in a hit with her staff if an enemy gets too close. Having the element of Life, healing is natural for her. She has no kind of lesser nobody at her disposal, though she can call a Wyvern heartless to ride for transportation.
The element and powers manifested in her nobody stem from her other’s personal philosophies. Her healing powers are vast, but can be a danger to her, as healing a wound too great will drain her. At times too willing to give of herself, she jeopardizes her unnatural existence without a second thought when an ally is harmed. This has caused problems before, as becoming too weak will cause her to transform into a kitten, and depending on how far she’s gone, even to pass out for several hours while still in kitten form.
She has a limited amount of power within her, stemming from her own life, and can only deplete this to a certain point before she begins to weaken physically from it. Healing a little cut is nothing. Healing a four-inch-long, one-inch-deep gash in a person’s arm or leg would leave her dizzy for a moment, but she’d get over it quickly. Repairing a shattered bone and the limb around it or healing a hole through the chest, on the other hand, would likely leave her weak and wobbly, unable to move quickly or think clearly. Even just trying to stand in that state would likely cause her to pass out.
Healing many small wounds in rapid succession can be just as hard as healing one deep one. Smaller wounds usually aren’t as bad, though, because the less energy she’s missing, the faster that little bit of energy will recover. If she depletes herself fully all at once, it takes much longer to recuperate. The more time she has for concentrating on the wound itself before mending it, the less energy it takes. Consequently, healing in the middle of a battle is much harder and more demanding than patching someone up afterwards.

When faced with too great an opponent to stand back and simply heal, Arexcir can add her strength to another’s, guiding their energy and augmenting it into an impressive force. She most often uses this with Xannah, who can have trouble controlling her Water element alone but definitely has the strength to use it. The fact that Arexcir can predict Xannah fairly well makes it easier for them to cooperate. The technique can also be utilized between Arexcir and Xangem, though it can get quite complicated since their elements, Life and Death, are exactly opposite. The friction between the two elements causes a great efflux of power, but is extremely hard to manage and direct, and can cause drastic back blast if things break down.

Much like her Atrocity form, if Arexcir is driven too far she has a very damaging option even in her human shape. She can twist her Life element into destroying life, rather than preserving it, but only when able to justify it to herself. A great deal of spiteful, deadly manners of killing are open to her once she’s past her breaking point, but that state is hard to reach.


- Weakness -

Carrie’s strongest trait was her heart. Without it, Arexcir is obviously an incomplete being. However, since Carrie’s heart was what held her together, Arexcir’s very existence is loosely bound by only memories of emotion. The only thing that truly keeps her existing is the presence of her friends, the people she cares for and protects. When cut off from them, or burdened with the knowledge that she would be extremely troubled at a given moment, Arexcir’s very being begins to unwind, causing her to fade in and out of existence. The only remedy to this is to find one of her sisters – usually Xannah – and cling to them until she is stable again.


- Quotes -

“Music is the purest form of emotion that can be shared with another person. By playing this music, though it can’t move my heart… it’s still worth it. Even if it’s just one person hearing and remembering, experiencing the beauty of a song… it’s still worth it.”

“My friends are the reason I am alive. I might have survived without them, but survival and life are two separate things. They give me my life, so I will do whatever is necessary to preserve theirs.”

“All that one has is given to them by – or taken from – someone else, from the moment they first begin to live to the moment they take their last breath. Whether it be knowledge, material possession, or even inner strength, there is always an outside source. The only reason anyone can live is because others give, so giving of oneself is a necessity.”

“Just because you didn’t fight in my stead or jump in the way of some attack… doesn’t mean that I don’t owe you my life. I do. I owe you my life, because you, you and my other sisters, are the only reason I can call myself a living being.”

“Well… my friends mean the most to me. I figure that I have three sides to my family. There’s my mother’s side, my father’s side… and then my own side. That’s why it means more. I’m tied to family by blood… but my friends choose to include me, to have me in their lives.”